Oh for fuck’s sake.
“So you are listening
I am just passing through
You can take some for yourself cause
It works that way too.”
Seriously. Just don’t.
It is so hot today. I’m sweating in places I didn’t even know I had sweat glands.
So I just looked at my blog from the front end for the first time in three months and I realized that I was missing a lot of posts. At first, it terrified me… I thought my blog had crashed or been attacked or some nefarious crap like that but the posts were there in the list at the back end but they just weren’t showing up on the front end. So what the hell was happening? I had no idea but Scooby Doo was on the case!!
I’ll spare you the gory details but suffice it to say, one long story and a big investigation later, I figured out that I somehow managed to drop all the posts from the last three months into a private bucket. I wasn’t even aware that WordPress had such a thing but there it is (I mean, what’s the point really?). Now I have to go back and change the visibility on three months worth of posts from Private to Public; It’ll be slow going but you’ll slowly get all the posts I’ve put together over the last three months. I’m still not sure how I did it or why but I believe it has something to do with the app on iPhone because the last post that showed up on the front was made with the app; after that post, everything went into the Private hole (ooh, that sounds dirty – I love it!). <sigh>
So, do hang tight and I’ll get things caught up as quickly as possible.
But I am glad to be back in business.
Until next time,
A long time ago, I met a monk here in San Francisco who said something to me that’s stuck with me for all these years. It was a profound statement that I’ve often pondered in turbulent times to quiet my mind. I hope you get out of this wisdom the same as it was able to give to me:
“The entire universe exists in a single cup of tea.”
I know that doesn’t mean anything to you all but for me, it was a cathartic and profound statement of my individuality; the last great fuck you to a family that had never wanted me and couldn’t deal with who I was as a person because of their own failures and prejudices: I spray painted it on the road as I was leaving home for the last time when my family kicked me out at eighteen for being gay. I wasn’t sure where I was going and I had nothing but my clothes and my car (which, granted, was a lot more than a lot of kids have when their families kick them out for being LGBT). But after the tears settled and the fear subsided, I realized I was done. Everything that those people put me through was over and I was ready to come into my own. This Way Out became my freedom bell.
Apologies that it’s been so long since I’ve actually written instead of posting pictures and animated GIFs but I’ve been a little busy lately with work and… well, life. On the plus side, no writing means that I haven’t been cycling which is a good thing. On the flip side, I haven’t been writing which is a bad thing. :): Welcome to my silly life.
But I am once again here to share my life with you in all it’s profound and stark beauty. OK, that’s not believable. Sorry. And even the pictures are sharing my life with you as they all mean something to me but you take my meaning.
Anyway, here it is, February 14th, the day of love, St. Valentine’s Day in all its glory. But before we get to that… is this year just zipping by or is it just me? I check my calendar one day, it’s January 20th and I’ve almost missed my Mom’s birthday, I look again and it’s Februrary 14th and I’ve forgotten Valentine’s Day. Seems like every time I turn around another month has flown by and I’ve missed a holiday or two. I didn’t even realize next Monday is a holiday. What other holiday falls in February? Actually, it’s the only holiday that falls in February and it’s President’s Day. I normally have that off as a floater but this year, it’s a paid holiday. Yahoo! Three-day weekend! But I digress.
Back to Valentine’s Day. Yes, I forgot Valentine’s day this year. Not that I thought it mattered because Michael is a great man but he wouldn’t know romance if it wore a diaper and shot heart shaped arrows into his butt. Or so I thought.
I had to go into the office today and when I got there, I realized that I’d left without wishing him a Happy Valentine’s day. Oh don’t get me wrong, I told him I loved him like I always do but was in such a mad rush to beat the traffic that I forgot what day it was. So I texted him and said simply, “Happy Valentine’s Day, my love.”
You know what I got back? Two words: “You remembered.”
Now, my husband is not prone to anger so I don’t think he meant anything with malice. But those two words were like slicing knives to me. They meant that I had forgotten whether or not he meant them that way and they also meant that he was likely, at least a little, upset. There was no Happy V-Day in return, just ‘You remembered’. When I got home tonight his card was waiting on me but I hadn’t got
You know I feel terrible that I forgot but I’ve gotten so used to the romance thing being missing from our lives that sometimes I fall into the hole myself. I just get tired of doing it all. Don’t get me wrong, I love Michael with all my heart and wouldn’t trade him for anything in the world but in every relationship, you have to make sacrifices to be with the person you love. One of the sacrifices I made was romance. I knew that when I married him so it was no surprise and I’m not looking for sympathy or pity or anything like that. Like I said, I love him. But sometimes, I can’t help but miss the romance I dreamed of as a wee gay lad stuffed in that suffocating southern closet. Oh well.
OK, I’ve bored you long enough.
If you celebrated the day with a loved one, I hope it was everything you dreamed of. If you didn’t, don’t worry, you will. If you’ve given up on love, don’t. It finds you and when it does, your world will change.
Take care, Sprites. And remember:
You are a wonder. You are unique. You are you and you are loved.
Until next time,
It’s going to be a short post today because it’s been a long day for me. Not a bad day, just a long one and I’m a bit beat so I’m heading to sleep soon but wanted to drop a note just to say that it’s all gonna be OK. At least it will be until I cycle again and then we’ll be back to either rescuing the world or the end of the world. I’ll decide when I get there. 😊
So here’s a flower for you:
And something we can all use a little more of these days:
Know that you are unique. Know that you matter. Know that you are loved.
Until next time,
This isn’t my normal type share but I find these drawings absolutely fascinating. Try to enjoy them. :):
I know it’s been a couple of days since my last post but I’ve been terribly sick with this cold so I hope you’ll forgive me for that.
I did make it to the doctor last Friday and the good news is that I’m not dying (well, at least not yet). He says I have a cold that’s become complicated with bronchitis which is why I’m coughing like a mad man and it sounds like I’m breathing through BBs. He also says that it’s likely going to hang out for a bit so I should buckle up and get ready for the ride (he really said that — bastard). So now I’m just here and trying to recover as best I can. I actually feel better today than I felt last week but I’m still coughing a lot and my breathing is a bit wet still but I do feel like I’m at least on the mend. Yay for mending!
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Not sure how many of you out there are WordPress users but WordPress just released a fantastic new update to 5.0.2. All-in-all, I absolutely love it! I am, in fact, writing this on it right now. The only thing I’m having trouble getting used to is this new block editor. It’s supposed to simplify things and make publishing life easier (and it does) but for some
So anyway (the poor man’s segue), while I’m here I want to run a test of an embedded link to see what it looks like so I’m posting a Gutenberg Editor article below.
Do enjoy the article and take care of yourselves and each other.
Until tomorrow, Sprites,
It’s been a long day today. I’m still fighting this cold so I’m not doing the whole news thing yet because I don’t feel like sitting up at this computer cross-referencing and all that jazz. So today is a meme day.
First up, RBG vs. DT:
It won’t take but a little digging about me on the net to know that I am vehemently anti-Donald Trump (and if you’re not, I’m sorry for you) so that meme just tickled me pink.
This next one is just a photograph but it makes me SOOO happy:
Heads up, Donny! We’re coming for you!
And finally something that I believe ALL of us have suspected at one point or another in our lifetimes on the Net:
Until next time, Sprites!
Sorry for not posting yesterday but I’m still down with the damn flu or cold or exotic baby disease of whatever the hell this is. All this coughing is driving me to distraction.
Being sick has been my life for the last week and being in bed has defined my existence and that’s OK. Nothing profound to see here; move along!
But, just so you’re not too terribly disappointed, here’s a purple Lamborghini:
Use it well, my loves.
And here’s hoping it’s a better year than the previous three.
But so far it’s starting off pretty crappy… for me, anyway. I’ve caught the flu. I got sick the Thursday after Christmas (and yes I caught it from my husband, the little stinker). And if Mikey’s any indication, it’s gonna be a lingerer: he’s been sick for almost a month now.
Oh well, it could always be worse.
Oh, I gotta call my mom. Write back later.
Happy New Year!
Today, I am a shameless advertiser. In other words a shill.
I just discovered a few days ago that Cloudflare (a company I trust which is saying something because I don’t trust any company) launched a new DNS service called 188.8.131.52. Secure and private, it also provides a speed boost to your lookups: I’ve changed all my devices over and they actually are running faster just as Cloudflare claims. Give it a shot. I mean what the hell, right? Your ISP is already tracking your usage and selling your date so Cloudflare can’t do anything more than that and it’ll speed up your internet connection.